Dennys with Devin's wannabe twin

One of the last people I met on one of my dating sites is Craig. From the beginning he reminded me of one of my ex-boyfriends in high school Devin. His choice of words, how he responded to things I'd say all reminded me of Devin. He wouldn't show me a picture of him, and I even Facebooked him and he didn't have a picture of himself as his picture and his account was private. So that kind of fueled my thought process even more that it was actually my ex under a fake name. (which is sadly something Devin would do so its not incredibly far fetched)  So when I walked into Denny's not knowing what I got myself into and the first I see of him is long legs. And then i walk thru the door and my first reaction to him is "OMG he could almost be Devin's twin" They are both geeky,  wear glasses, incredibly tall, and choose their words wisely. There were slight awkward silences between us. Mostly because I honestly felt like I was on a date with my ex. So therefore, I didnt feel the need to ask him any questions because Devin knows a lot about me. But I had to keep reminding myself that no... its not Devin... its Craig. But even then, I couldn't get over it. We sat and talked long after we were done eating. ( I should say HE talked I LISTENED lol) The silences were becoming more frequent so I told him that I was getting tired  and excused himself to go and pay the check... which i thought was interesting... He told me to wait at the table while he went and paid the tab, and then walked back and we left. I have never had a guy do that... his reasoning behind it... WHO KNOWS. lol. He kinda walked me to my car... wait thats a lie... we walked towards HIS car which was.... kinda... sorta... parked near mine lol. He gave me a hug... a real hug... that ALSO reminded me of Devin. and then wanted another hug... and then one more hug. Which is also something Devin did. *sigh* Im not gonna lie... I dont know what to do with this one. Its hard to persue something with someone that reminds you of someone's heart you broke back in highschool..... (its one of those if i could take it back i would kinda things... stupid immature childish decisions that forever changes someones life kinda thing) I honestly dont know. HELP?!?!?!

Train Station

Oh the train station, so many past memories that I have yet to let go of. Anyways. I went there because I finally got to meet Terry... he is someone whom I have talked to on and off for about two years. Why we stopped talking neither of us really remember, but we started talking again not to long ago (remember how I said men come in and out of my life without warning... here is another example) When I went to get him from the train station I thought it was on a whole nother street then it actually was... (Ima blonde what can i say?) And when I saw him sitting there waiting for me... I got flashbacks of when I went there to pick up my first fiance Kris sooooo many years ago. It played like a video in my head I had to look away from the tracks and just focus on Terry, he was the whole reason I even drove across town to begin with. We hit it off good, not that I didnt expect that we wouldn't... hes a big guy so I automatically felt safe around him. Hes one of those guys that your not too sure about, he looks sweet, but then his tattoos and piercings make him look intimidating. lol. We drove back to my place and I showered and changed for dinner... (before getting him at the train station I was doing errands for both me and my adopted mom and didnt have any spare min to freshen up) We went out to dinner at this Mexican restaurant that I've been wanting to try. There wasn't that many people in there, and our waitress was kinda rude... we weren't even halfway thru our meal and she brought us the check and then he paid the ticket and then she asked us for boxes... when we were clearly still eating! The food was good, I've had better but Terry liked it and thats all that really mattered (hes a very picky eater) After dinner we walked to the 3 dollar movie theater and got our tickets to see Toy Story 3, but we had to wait until the movie started so he played video games while I cheered him on. The movie was good, and then we came back to my place and talked for awhile and hung out, and eventually passed out. He had to fight with my cats for bed space (my two cats almost always sleep in bed with me) and so he didnt sleep that well. He left for back home earlier this morning, he had to help his mom set up bingo for later tonight. lol. But all in all, I hope I get to see him again. Hes one of the guys I hope is always in my life, even if were not together.

Ditched.

Before I explain the title... here's some happy pictures from the wedding! 

 The Bride and Groom

(now Mr. & Mrs. Eric Fluter)

 

Adam, Eric, Kristina, Becca, and I

(best man, groom, bride, maid of honor, bridesmaid)

Us girls =]

Adam being a pimp, (my adopted dad was making me laugh)

Their pretty Rastafarian cake!

And now to the explanation of the title of this post.....

MY DATE DITCHED ME!!!

Yep, at the end of the night Im not gonna lie, I kinda regretted inviting Brice as my date.... Not because he was rude or mean... i mean he spoon fed my little brother cake (which my brother got all over himself and Brice)... it was just the fact that he didnt know me well enough to be able to handle my family. And now EVERYONE is going to be talking about it at work, and now hes all awkward around me. The reason i said its going to be all around work is because they forgot a knife to cut the cake so my dad gave my date twenty bucks to run into our work to get a knife... and he asked me to go with him and i said sure why not... and a couple of our co-workers stopped and talked to us there for gossip will be spreading like wild fire. *eye roll*... And of course i most likely wont hear about any of it, so it will be completely out of my hands... oh well. The ceremony was beautiful even tho it took awhile to start... my date met my fam and hung out and was very nice and respectful. We were going to go back to my moms for the reception and before it even started he said he needed to leave and i dont know if it was because my adopted brother smokes pot that freaked him out or my mom being kinda rude and saying things she shouldnt have (not towards him but towards others) that made him want to leave... or all of the above lol. I give up. Thats all Im going to say..  

Pure Insanity.

No, I am not randomly getting married or eloping. HA! But my adopted brother is...tomorrow. Ugh.They planned a wedding in TWO WEEKS. All to get married on 10-10-10. Seriously people? OMG! Everyone is going crazy, my adopted mom, his fiance/baby mama... its just WOW! I didn't know until LATE tonight whether or not I was allowed to bring a date. YEP... TONIGHT! (Thats just a glance at how crazy it is!) I sent out a mass text to EVERYONE in my contacts. I thought, hey... I can get a date pretty easily (for the most part, and no im not trying to gloat or anything of the sort) But however... EVERYONE but ONE person was busy, or already doing something. Guess who that one person is? One of my kinda supervisors at work... who I just happen to have HAD a crush on when I first started working there. He only got my number because he synced his phone with his facebook friends... and then text me by accident one night thinking I was a different Liz. lol. I thought cant hurt to ask right? If i got turned down it wouldn't matter any. But no, he was the only one that said he could/would go. If this was a normal wedding I dont think I would be as stressed out as I am right now. But no, its a Rastafarian theme. (if you dont know what that is its the whole Jamaican, Bob Marley, pot leaf thing) This is definitely going to be some kind of adventure tomorrow. PRAY FOR ME!

Wedding Crashers (yet another movie night)

One thing, that NEVER fails. Is when I least expect it, totally and completely out of the blue. Guys that I have talked to in the past, randomly text and/or call me. It happens so frequently in fact that there is almost no use for me to clean out my contacts every so often, because about half of them will re-announce their presence at some point in time. Like last night. I get a text from Jeremy (first time we've talked since July-ish supposedly ). After he sent me a picture I remembered who he was, but I don't remember what site we met off of. (that's what I get for having 5+ dating sites at one point, I'm only down to two now! =] ) He wanted me to come over for a movie, and snuggles. (Not gonna lie it was a nice change for a guy to say he wanted snuggles instead of me asking them) I had worked earlier that night, and had just left my moms, where you can cut the tension over there with a flippin knife because my brother is getting married tomorrow so everyone is fighting, arguing, etc. Ive just tried to help my mom out and pretty much stay out of it as best as I can. Wasn't my choice to try and plan a wedding in two weeks... YES TWO WEEKS. Anyways... so I did go over to Jeremy's after being around all that negativity a strong guy holding you is a good way to relax before bed. And, he lived like around the corner from my house, which was also a plus, and the other reason I went over. We watched wedding crashers, which i thought was in good theme since tomorrow is the wedding and all. lol. Jeremy (towards the end) kept falling asleep on me. (Which was cute) And could barely keep his eyes open, he told me I could stay over but I declined. I got him to walk me to the door and then I sent him back to bed. Im not going to put all my eggs in one basket, or even hope for anything... just gonna let everything fall where it may.

Avoidance

I have come to realize that in my dating, and what men I choose to surround myself with that I have some biased choices. All of my serious relationships have been with white men. I have went on dates with men of different races, but for one reason or another it didnt go past one or more dates. I recently went out on two dates with an Egyptian man. But do you know long it took him to get me out to even meet him? MONTHS. For some reason or another weve always talked on and off. And we would make plans and I would HONESTLY forget I was suppose to go out and meet him for whatever we decided on. But always I was suppose to contact him because I worked late, or had something to do, etc. I honestly dont know how many dates we were suppose to go on. And I thought it was hilarious because the one time I take a cashier shift at work HE shows up in my line. It took me a second to recognize him, but after I did I felt extremely guilty. EXTREMELY. Even then, when he left and said "text me" I had to make an excuse to get his number again. Some might say shes simply not interested, or Im being racist or mean. I honestly never felt this great connection with him. But my guilt got the best of me and I went over to his apartment and hung out with him and watched Prince of Persia. We didn't talk much, just kinda sat there. I honestly didnt have much to say to him. And for some reason or another he convinced me to come back the next night for dinner and another movie. I was watching him cook me dinner the second night, and i mean really cooking (hey not many men know how to make THEIR OWN salad dressing. Now that impressed me. ) Regardless there still wasnt much conversation. He gives good hugs, and helped momentarily with my loneliness.It honestly was nice to be held for once.(no sex happened just cuddled while watching the movie) Nothing is really there. But now I can at least say I tried.

Grown Ups

So  I've deleted most of my online dating profiles with the exception of two... even tho I'm sure I'll delete those two eventually too, its a slow letting go process since I've been online dating since 17, and I'm just use to them being there. So I went out to the movies with this guy Joseph to see Grown Ups at the three dollar theater. It was a movie that I've never seen, and he's been wanting to see so I didn't care that he took me out to the cheap movie theater  in town for our first date. This was his first date in 6 years so he was completely respectful and didn't do any of the sly moves most guys try to do at movies. It was kinda refreshing, but weird for me at the same time. I feel love through touch, so if your not reaching out to touch me I feel like you don't like me or care about me (weird i know). And this was my first date since I've got back from my vacation with Ian and I'm not gonna lie Ive been feeling vulnerable and really lonely. So I kinda needed him to reach out to me, but I understand why he didn't. The movie was alright, I think Adam Sandler has done better movies in the past that were more comical than this one.  But all together it was ok... After the movie we just talked by my car for a little bit. He gave me a hug and then we went home and both got on messenger and talked for a little bit. I knew the whole date was really awkward for him, so I didnt try to make it anything that it wasn't. We get a long great, and have the same sence of humor which is good. It will take him a few dates for him to feel comfortable around me. So who knows whats gonna happen with this one.